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Saturday, March 31, 2007


lol.

i supposed some of u have seen this before.
its everywhere.
haha.

but i didnt really have the chance to take a pic of it.

now i did.

just watched The Hospital.
felt a tug in my heart when i heard that song ( ceng jing tai guop nian qing).
it nice!

lol.


" when u lose the one u love,
you'll nvr forget it,
you just get used to it."

i guess i did.

no, i no longer speak of him.
yes, i do think of him.
only when someone mention him,
and when im alone.

sometimes i really do admire those who can
"close on door behind and straight away find the key to another.."

its been one month and a few days.

he stop appearing in my dreams
he stop appearing in my mind,
i thought i forgot his face.
but i did not forget his smile.

" around the wolrd i searched for you.
i travelled on, when hope was gone,
to keep a rendezvious.
i know that somewhere, somehow, sometime,
i would see the smile you're smiling now.

....

no more around the world will i go,
for i have found my world in you~"

lol!

such a nice poem.

too bad that woman read it in such a disgusting way,
with ppl nodding their heads and emphasizing at parts w/o adding emotions.

lol.

donch know when will he leave my heart.
but i know the memories will stay.

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

昨天, 我想了很多.

(抱歉, 虽然本人华文不及格, 但还是觉得这种东西, 用华语来讲会比较合适.)

嗯, 昨天晚上嘛, 跟晓萌(不知道是那个MENG,不好意思) 谈了不少,
散了后, 我真的想了很多.
原来,每个人都会曾经被其他人羡慕,
而能够被他人羡慕, 是一种幸福.

人不是完美的,
所以世上绝不可能有想要什么就有什么的人.
之所以, 才会造成人与人之间互相羡慕及嫉妒的现象.

就好象我和大沈常常出外用餐,
好象每次她都要说觉得我点的菜比较好吃.
人就是有这么一种心理, 总觉得别人的比自己的好..

不过, 到不如倒过来想,
自己能被别人羡慕, 其实也意谓着自己是幸福的.

毕竟,你还有一些他人所向往而却得不到的.
好比, 或许你没有好成绩, 个性贪玩.
但, 虽然你的学业不好, 常感到自卑,
不过至少你的同年是美好的.

对, 别人可能天天勤奋读书, 成绩优越,
虽然长大能赚很多钱, 但却永远也买不回同年时失去的快乐.

所以,
我认为我们应该都被他人羡慕过吧.

那么, 我们应该算是幸福的了.


paiseh ending so lame and abrupt.
but parents nagging.

zzz. i failed my chi.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

lol.

the most stupid thing on earth to tell me that
she said i look fat in tank tops or whatever tops.

cuz she did advice me not to wear them
until i slimed down.

by "kindly" informing me shen was speaking bad behind me,
u are only telling me how "b-word-that-rhymes-with-itchy"[copyrite of shen]
u are.

freak off can.
u think its got anything to do with u?

zzz.
seriously, i told myself not to be angry or what
and take it as a test on me and shen's frenship.

but hel*,
this is so stupid i find it humiliating to take it as a challenge/test
on our frenship.

u dumb S.
u think by telling theophilia those things,
theophilia will tell me or sth.

-_-

uh huh.
then what?
me and shen will quarrel and break up?

pls.
grow up.

go find sth better to do.

i've got more impt things to face
than to listen to brena telling me how theophilia told her that YOU told her about what da shen said to you abt me.

ha.
u really think da shen takes u seriously.

u really wanna compare how much she said abt u than how much she said abt me?

huh?
guess u are really stupid.
ya. dense.

but anyway,
i do pity u somehow.
and ur erm, nvm.

just hope that someday u will realise,
well, huang bei, u are really. lame.

LOL~

Thursday, March 01, 2007

haix.

mon change seats le.

heard from cao ling tt im sitting with her man.

hope she doesnt skin me alive out of jealousy or sth.
LOL!.

anyway,
i must get my revenge.
yes.
and oso savour the last moments sitting crapping laughing with muah twin.

seriously,
dont know what got into her mind to go and sit with erkhem.

lols.


zzzz.

few days nvr blog le.
all becos of my dear bloody bro's exams.

& im not allowed to use the com.
-_-

but anyway,
i need to blabble, tok, splurt, wadeva
this thing out.

this totally ridiculous and random and stewpit
and childish thing out.

no, it does not concern me.
but yes,
it concerns my best friend.

i shant use any names
but i guess the person herself shud noe who she is.
(but i doubt she will bvisit my blog)

yes,
i knew her like long time ago,
when i first met her
i was deceived by her generiosity,
cuz i was rather naive at that time.

but as time pass,
i realised she was not what she seems.
she was using me.
or watso ever.

not impt.

most imptly,
is that i introduced her to my fren.
big mistake.

one fine day,
they happily went out.
then sth sily happened.
i dont know what happened,
but hey,
after that my fren confessed she felt guilty and apologised to her.

however,
that was not the end.

this very funny girl happened to think tt my fren was saying: "im sry. blame me. its all my fault"
and very facadely tolf my fren that she was pissed they way how my fren reacted
and how my fren scolded her bunch of frens.

pls.
[to her]
if u really happen to care for ur frens,
er.. then why did u do such a thing to my fren in the first place?

maybe others wont understand,
i dont blame u, looks do deceive.

i know how it felt cuz im been tru it too.

then,
i thot everything was over.
[omg, she even came to ask me if my fren felt guilty or sad.
does she even have like self conciousness or at least not so thick skinned?]

okay.
maybe i still can forgive her for that.
because after tt somehow she seemed rather nice to me in sch.

BUT.

i heard recently from my frens in sch
that she has been like spreading this silly matter of her quarrel with my fren
all over her class.

oh, what a poor little girl who got bullied hor?
what a victim~

the most ridiculous part is that other class in that level actually heard abt it too?

whats her damn freaking problem?
and somemore,
if u know im the best best best fren of the person u quarreled with,
will u like tell me "she sucks"

insensible.

okay, i managed to keep my cool
cuz really see no point in blowing fire at their already chao da faces.

anyway,
this post may sound childish but seriously,
u cant just bottle it up.
at least not me.

just wanna say to that random freaking facade:
go away.
and stop being so childish.

stop acting/pretending/whatsoever faking.
nort as if u are the poor lonesome victim.

come on lor.
whats ur freaking problem??
got nth better to do than to go spreading to ppl who dont even know her that she sarks?

if i really have the chance,
i wouldhave slapped u in the face.

kan bu guan ni de shuo zuo shuo wei.

[to her]
if u ever see me in sch again.
do not smile to me
cuz i will return u that patronizing smile again.

do not talk to me
cuz i may just ask u to go away.

but of cuz,
u can continue ur silly rumors in class.

cuz, judging from ur class de ppl,
i know that they are just like u.

cant be bothered.
then why type so much?

cuz i shuang.
and i bu shuang you.
=))